Friday, February 06, 2009

organizing me...

i should, for the love of life, get my butt off my mood swings and work my ass off because i have crazy stuff to finish!!!!

 it's crazy how i get things going and just forget about them.
what's wrong about me people?!
this forgetting of things is just screwing up not only my sched but my sleep as well.  

ok...breathe in breath out...
think happy thoughts

i have to jot down what goes in my head. they are, after all,  mine... =P

and until i find someone who can read my mind the way i want them to -- maybe then, i'll have a better time figuring out how to do about my life in a way where....oh well, i'll figure what way somehow.

For starters of getting organized. 
1.) I'm buying a new external hard drive to push out the garbage i have in my lappy that i cannot seem to dump in the recycle bin. 

2.) I also made a new folder, named it - 2009 Crap -- to indicate the new stuff I'm cluttering my life with.  

3.)I am also starting to sleep right. I sleep whenever I feel like it.
hahaha! well, compared to last year's "i-won't-sleep-no-matter-what" mantra... this is something i must pat my back for. (err - this is more of getting my brain organized to be more effective in organizing my crap)

and i should write more.

I get to be more patient when i turn and release my stress in writing.

But i've left the ramp of intellectual word play years ago... but I feel like docking ship again. 
It's fun to create sentences that only few people can's a bit snobbish...but then again, it keeps you on the edge...

on the other hand,
I want my writing to be as friendly as possible.  

I envy writers who can communicate intelligently while they make the reader create mental visuals of crap using simple words. 

Oh well...since when did I really write seriously? I've only been blogging lately about life and the way it spanks my ass when it feels like it. nyahahahah! 

no wonder this blog is stagnant for quite's spanking is getting harder..and it takes me longer to nurse it... 

I just can't seem to find the right time to write about the right things.  And when I do, the moment already passed me by...and the thought becomes irrelevant and incohesive.

Speaking of getting me organized, I must learn to center myself.  I love to do so many things that I can almost literally feel myself so scattered sometimes...

I read somewhere that there is a technique to finding your center to better commune with yourself... 

ONE: Create a centrifugal motion of only absorbing silence and peace. 
Usually it needs for you to drag yourself away from the noisy & busy life you normally have...
TWO: allot ten to fifteen minutes of peace and of not thinking about anything...
Just feeling the breeze or just being comfortable with the silence... Keeping yourself calm, emptying your thoughts of anything except for what is happening at the moment...
THREE: Breathe deep and shout the stress away in one big voice feeling the pressure leaving you.
Sometimes it pays to physically hear your stress being pushed out...(or something)
hmmm I think I will try it...oh well...whiny me has to go then...and if this works -- maybe later I'll work on something about a piece on world peace (nyahhaha!)


Anonymous said...

Cool ka lang hehe.. the more negative vibes nnafeefeel mo lalo mgging complicated ang stuffs hehe :)

Anonymous said...

hehehe! lagi. but its ok. just ranting it off is helping =P